i m sad. SOS...~

i feel very sad right know.

just now, mr derick gave all of us a lot homework. honestly, i love english homework, although i am not really good in english. thats the reason i like english homework. it can improve my enlish. however, we have to do timing while doing the homework. seriously, i cant answer those question. i do understand what is the passage is about and i know the answer some of the questions. it just that i cant put all my ideas into words. huh~

the essay parts.
i do have the ideas. but again. i cant put it into words.
i do agree that i dont really have enough general knowledge. so, i should read more i guess.
but, besides that, what should i do...??
i dont know what to do. mr derick...!!!!!! help me...huaaaaaa...~
i feel that i m very suck right know.
i m down and sad.


i am very worried about eald right know
=(

home

honestly i dont know what to post this week. umm... lately, i m not in a good mood. maybe because i m very tired right know. tired of assignments, tests, homework, calculator and so many things.

i miss my home. sometimes, i do jealous with hani, suraya and poh hui because their house just around here. they can go back whenever they what. they can meet their parents and siblings every week. huhh... i feel that i want to cry right now. i wanna go home.....

i miss my own room.

i miss my brother and sister.

truthly, me and my mother were not really close before this. we always fighting just because of a tiny little things. however, when i was form 4, i went to boarding school. after that, my relationship with my mom became much better. i dont know why. haha. now, i can spend my time chit chat with her about cooking, shopping and so many things. although we are very different in our views and opinions, but we still can get along very well. haha. of course we can get along....she is my mom. =P

i close to my father. i always ask for his advise for my study, life, how to buy headphones(haha), . haha. but i cant never ever tell him about a crush on guys.because, he said, "NO BOYFRIEND UNTIL YOU ARE IN THE SECOND LAST YEAR IN UNIVERSITY" huh~ but he never restrict me to be friend with guys. hihi. one thing that i like about my father is, he always say like this to me..."IF YOU NEED TO BUY SHOES, CLOTHES or BAGS, JUST BUY IT. YOU ARE STILL YOUNG..HAVE TO FOLLOW THE TREND..USE YOUR MONEY FIRST, LATER I WILL REPAY IT..." =)
hihi. cool right..? but pity to him if i spend too much. so, i decided that i have to saving so i could buy all those things with my own money.hihi.

when i think of both my parents, i feel guility. my results recently not really good. its ok. i promise to both of you, i will never give up and i will achive great results in the ausmat...
YEAHHH!!!!!!!!!!!