given up.

admittedly, life getting more tough as i wake up every morning.
it seems that i m not alone.
my friends also feel the same.
ausmat is just like a nightmare to us.
everything changes.
all around me becomes more tense.
sometimes people only thinking about marks rather than thinking to be a better human being.
that's life.
people seems to be more self-centred.

once.
i gave up.
cause everything went wrong that day.
my calculator "dead" already.
i stuck with my ielts writing.
yes.
i need to repeat it.
again.
i really really really thought that there was no hope for me to fly.
if i fail this ausmat.
i cant fly.
yup.
my family cant afford a pair of wing for me.
but then i was thinking.
what would i do if i cant fly.
not only my dreams.
but.
all hopes from family especially both my parents.
will just broken into pieces.
not only them
but.
how about my next generation.
my nation.
my country.
what would i tell them.
am i going to tell them that i just give up...?
NO.
i need to stand up.
i am not alone.
i have The Mighty one.
i have my family.
i have friends.
although that all of us are far apart
but i know that they are there for me.

so i will never thinking of given up again.
i am strong.
i chose this path.
and i cant turn back.
i will walk, run, or maybe crawl
just to reach the end of this path.
that is
AUSTRALIA.....

=)

here.

here.
i am in the middle of this war
but yet i dont know who are fighthing..

here.
i m in a crowded space
but yet i could feel the emptiness..

here.
i could see
a robot that automatically programed
to do this and that

here.
no where else to go

here.
i just want to get out from here.

but here.
where i belong to.~